Why?

That feeling where you feel lost and you just want to cry. Where you just want to call it quits and just curl up somewhere and die. How could you fuck things up so badly? Someone that you hated the most can become one of your closest confidants in a time of need. Why? It just makes no sense to me...why? Why now? I just don't know what to do, I feel like theirs a pit in my chest and it just can't be filled. It's like some part of me has just died...just when I was starting to feel happy again. Just when I was starting to feel at peace with life, with things. Fuck!

I feel myself unraveling from the center and it scares me. The stitches are coming loose and I don't know what to do. I think I need a break. I need a pause from blogging for a bit. Just need to get away.

Later days.